SkyDxddy x Citizen Soldier – Heavy (Official Lyric Video)

I'm down and trying to hold on, but I don't know what I'm holding on for, I have an ex who has been torturing me from I'm 17, that's 40yrs and you just wait till the day he decides to stop, mentally he has me fkd, I have 2 kids who I don't bother with as he has them poisoned and I have to accept that they are gone, I keep my phone on silent as nobody phone 's, during covid I didn't get one message or call from them to check if I was even alive and they no I'm sick and I wonder what they'd say if someone stopped to offer condolences on me and they didn't know, I believe that's going to happen, and what do you say, would you not be ashamed or embarrassed as they aren't that they far away, he has filled their heads with evil lies, and it's too late for them to change now, my ex said he'll be happy when I'm dead as at least he'd know where I am, he's 10yrs older than me, I stayed with him 13hlf years hoping he'd change and he'll never change but his kids think he's the best man in the world, I am sitting here trying to wire up wee security camera's as he's been in this house and would deny it like he's always done, I wish there had been someone about with a camera everytime I was trailed by the hair and kicked and punched, nobody believes anything unless you have it on camera, I wish my beatings were recorded, the cop's have all my reports but my kid's wouldn't even look at them. They'd say I'm a liar, so I was told after I've had loads of tests done on me that they believe I have 80%chance I have cancer but they need to do another test to find out for sure and I have told them I don't want anymore tests as I don't care and I don't want to know as I would refuse treatment, they think I need psychological help as I am not taking it serious enough and I said I don't want any more therapist's, they must have got in touch with my kids who because I refuse to do anymore tests then they said "well there must be fk all wrong with you then as anyone else would want to know, I'm not like anyone else and I don't want to know as time will tell and as I lie here full of morphine 24hrs a day in pain and rolling the bed or bathroom floor, I have never once asked them to come and help me if I can't get up, it's lucky I've been on my own my own my whole life as it takes a lot to be inside and living in my bedroom with the shades down and even an eye mask as I can't stand the light now. I take it day by day getting banned for speaking the truth they have really lit me up and I don't even have content, I just give my opinion on the entities running this world and they are torturing me as they have the control of my bank and accounts and passwords and emails and they change them on me, you leave a comment they don't like and they tag you which they have been doing at least 15yrs fekn me about. Anyway like everything else they will take us out when they have had enough of us exposing, I will as I have nothing to lose and I wouldn't be missed and they have a lot more for us, too bad the sheep didn't listen as it's too late now.☘️☘️☘️🇮🇪